Firstly, I’d just like to put a trigger warning on this post for anyone who is sensitive to the topic of self harm, suicide and mental illness. These posts are written in diary form, therefore it is not necessarily factual/helpful to those who may be struggling, please take this into consideration when reading. If anything causes you concern, you are welcome to email me or reach out to a mental health helpline.
A few people on my last blog post said they would like a separate post on my CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) experience. Yeah, that’s right, I do it online, through betterhelp.com. I have my own counsellor, whom I talk to daily through message, and once a week phone call. I’m still new to this service, I started about a month ago. This service isn’t free, although you can get it at a discounted price if you don’t have the funds, and is much cheaper than in person weekly therapy. To me this in an investment, something that will benefit my future, so I justify this spending,I paid for a 6 month subscription, and will decide at the time if i’ll renew. I had a week trial before I paid, you can message me if you want a code to be able to do this too.
I’ve always found it incredibly hard to talk, so being able to do it from the comfort of my home makes it that bit easier. My counsellor and I have started with CBT, which I am optimistic about, as I struggle with negative intrusive thoughts. It’s still very early stages, I shall update my experience in a few months.
After my negative experience at my doctors, I felt hopeful that there was actually another option out there. If I find it difficult answering a question or am unable to see the positives, my counsellor will send me worksheets to complete, which is helpful, It makes me feel better knowing there are multiple techniques out there. I have already learnt a lot about myself that I didn’t quite know before, I am more aware. My ‘recovery’ journey is only just beginning, I am more hopeful than before.
If anyone would like a more personal post, instead of an overview, I could do so. Any questions or blog post ideas you’d like me to create are very welcome! I hope this was helpful! If you are thinking of joining betterhelp, I’m here if you have any questions. Thank you for reading!