Firstly, I’d just like to put a trigger warning on this post for anyone who is sensitive to the topic of eating disorders and mental illness. These posts are written in diary form, therefore it is not necessarily factual/helpful to those who may be struggling, please take this into consideration when reading. If anything causes you concern, you are welcome to email me or reach out to a mental health helpline.
As my past blog posts show, I use to struggle with eating, I heavily restricted and B/P often. I am in a much better place, but still haven’t developed a healthy relationship with food. I was originally concerned that the next module in my degree(nutrition) would cause a negative impact on my progress. My mindset has changed, and I’ve realised it may actually be a positive experience? I may redevelop unhealthy opinions on ‘bad’ food, but in the end, won’t I be more inclined to give my body the best nutrition? I may become physically healthy (on the inside), which I believe is important, for both physical and mental health.
I currently let myself be naïve. After obsessing over everything I consumed, I now don’t actively think about what I put in my body. I avoid looking at calories and nutrition on packets as much as possible. As a young adult, I feel comfortable with this current naivety, as after my studies I’ll probably loose the freedom of intuitive eating. (This doesn’t mean I am currently suffering with BED) This sounds negative, and that I’ll develop unhealthy habits, but I believe nourishing the body is important, without restriction.
I am looking forward to studying this module, it’s really interesting and hope I can gain knowledge, without developing an unhealthy mindset along the way. I’m not sure what career I want my degree to progress into, but working with eating disorders/ ED ward is something I can see myself doing. Thank you for reading, any advise/comments are welcome!