Has an eating disorder effected my fertility?

Firstly, I’d just like to put a trigger warning on this post for anyone who is sensitive to the topic of eating disorders,suicide and mental illness. These posts are written in diary form, therefore it is not necessarily factual/helpful to those who may be struggling, please take this into consideration when reading. If anything causes you concern, you are welcome to email me or reach out to a mental health helpline.

In the depths of my disordered eating,due to the lack of calories and over purging, my period stopped for multiple months. My body didn’t have enough intake to reproduce, let alone menstruate. Once I started fuelling my body, my period eventually returned! Oh I was grateful! I have had a regular period for 2 years now.

But I am worried,what if them few months caused permanent damage to my reproductive system? Children are definitely wanted in my life. I guess there is no way to find out until the time comes where I am ready to have children. I am currently on ‘the pill’, and when my partner and I have been ‘risky’ I haven’t had any shocks, which is good! But in the back of my mind I worried it’s because I am infertile. I lack friends, therefore I don’t know if this is a worry for the average women? (Would anyone like a separate post on intimacy/sex and mental illness? For example;body image,lack of desire/vise versa,impulsiveness.

I realise this is a very personal topic to talk about, therefore my emails are open if anyone has any questions. My blog is anonymous hence my openness. I’ve been struggling with suicidal intrusive thoughts often the past few weeks, and I’ve liked being on here to distract myself. I don’t have social media so it’s nice to have this platform. I wasn’t going to post this as it’s very short/not filled with much context, it didn’t’ feel ‘good enough’. I then reminded myself this is MY blog, and like a diary, therefore does not need expectation. Thank you for reading, struggling tonight so if anyone wants to comment/email to chat,I’d be grateful! What is your favourite book?


  1. I would check with a doctor. They can do a quick exam and can tell how everything is working. It will ease your mind. Also, there are only 2 days a month a woman can get pregnant, so you may have been lucky to avoid those days. It’s better to just check instead of worrying about something. If something is wrong, there is always IVF, surrogacy, adoption, etc. Or they can freeze your eggs. Point is, people can check and then you can ease your mind.

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  2. It’s my understanding that problems associated with nutritional difficulties are reversed once the eating has resumed properly and has been stable for some time. I think you’ll find that as long as your calorie and nutritional requirements are steady, your fertility will no longer be affected by your ED. Any fertility issues are unlikely to be caused by the ED now. As someone who had an intestinal bypass and therefore does not absorb 75% of everything I eat, I am permanently malnourished unless I take my pills regularly. I’m a mum of 2 now and while it took 10 months to fall with both because of my malnourishment that was because my problems were current and irreversible. Whereas yours are in the past. But if you want to be sure, a chat with your GP and a blood test to check for any deficiencies might settle your worries.

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  3. In regards to you questioning your fertility, I think the best thing you could do as of now is go to a doctor and let them look at your egg count, even if you are wanting to try for children yet. In regards to the suicidal thoughts and lacking friends, I understand that 100% given that I am in a very similar situation. My contact form is posted on my blog and I would love to chat with you about anything and everything if need be! Keep your head up 😘

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  4. We chose not to start a family for 9 years and NEVER had unprotected sex. Naturally, when we changed our minds I thought I would fall pregnant immediately! Well, it took 10 months. We now have two wonderful teenagers – not twins for anyone wondering! My point is that although you hear lots about women accidentally falling pregnant after a single encounter, as an earlier poster pointed out you only have a few fertile days per cycle and timing that with the zoomiest sperm being of good quality is crucial. Some eggs are better than others and some sperm too. You need a meeting of the best and also to have a good endometrial thickness for the fertilised egg to implant in to. So… don’t read too much into not getting pregnant when you weren’t fully covered by contraception. And your periods returning is a really positive sign. Well done!

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  5. Just here to say I totally understand this. I just made a post on my page about my fears of fertility and pregnancy. I am afraid of being pregnant because of my mental health issues (anxiety), but I want to have children with my husband one day. I am terrified that the extended time that I have been extremely underweight has affected my ability to have children (I also most likely have endometriosis). Glad to hear I am not alone in these thoughts! Wish you the best!

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