I was adamant I was going to end my life and didn’t expect to be alive when I hit 18. I hadn’t applied to university or any further education expecting never to need to. This left me really confused as to what to do with myself, considering I hit adulthood and was no longer suicidal.
I started a last minute course doing something I wasn’t really interested in, and didn’t challenge me educationally, but I wanted to do something to make me feel ‘less stupid’. I have always been academically focused. I then decided to have a year away from any education to focus on my mental health.
This brings us to now. For the past 7 months I have been doing a bachelors degree in, and still have a little over 2 years left. Recently I have been filled with a passion to go to medical school once I graduate. I kept pushing the idea away as I’d never be ‘smart enough’ to do medicine. My university average is 96%, a very high First, so I’m unsure why I have no confidence in my academic skills.
For now I am going to keep this passion to myself, as I have a while until I need to apply, so have lots of time to process my decisions. If medical school is for me it would mean another 5-7 years at university on top of my current degree. A long time!
I am an obsessively organised person which would be put to good use haha. I’m going to try and relax about worrying for the future, and just live in the now.
Here’s to everyone surviving who never expected to still be here. Thank you!